Weekend Fun

Where do I start. My weekend started early thursday morning. I couldn't have asked for a better past few days with the exception of a little wave. We finally got to laugh, joke, touch, basically enjoy each other. All my feelings for this man finally made sense. I've gained more respect, appreciation, and love for him. This experience was what I needed. He's great and he's mine. Even though I know this will not be easy I am now more ready than ever to give my all into making it work.

Dose of reality.

So last night I was told that my feelings for a certain someone were bullshit. Followed by, "You're a cool person, I like talking to you, you say interestin' stuff blah blah blah". One thing just hasn't settled in my mind. The fact Im such a great person, but yet one thing that is so dear to me I bullshit about?!? I ended up hanging up and falling asleep, only to wake up with that shit still on my mind bothering me. Maybe its because I love honesty but hate contradictions? How can you want someone as a close friend but yet not take what they say/how they feel seriously? To me thats impossible.

Now lets get one thing straight, Im a type of person to be very guarded. VERY guarded. Me expressing my emotions is kinda like finding a needle in a haystack. So when I get that shit out only months later to be told I was bullshittin' ..that is the ultimate slap in the face. Kinda like taking my heart, using a sledgehammer, brutally smashin' it a couple times and then placing it back in my chest cavity and expectin' it to function properly. Na dude, probably isn't gonna happen.


They say when something bothers you, write, talk, do whatever it takes to get it off your chest. He said truth hurts. Its not the truth that hurt me last night, it was me cherishin' someone only for me to find out everything I've said in the past didn't mean shit to them.


Currently feeling : Withdrawn.

Feelin' myself.

I am amazing.
The end.

-- her.

Hearsay.

"You say that hes wrong.
You say that hes no good.
Leave him alone,
cause hes gonna hurt you.
But what they don't know is how he makes me feel.

You say that he creeps,
always running runin' the streets.
Hes playin' the game and he'll never love me.
You say that hes fake,
but why does it feel so real?"

Shit can demolish a relationship if you allow it.
Everyone always wants to rain on your parade when it seems to be going so good.
But they say, there is always some truth to dishonesty.

Imagine that.

eh.

Naked Truth.

Dear Unknown:


Okay, so I decided to be open minded and give this a shot. I know far too many of you are reading this just to be nosey. Don't get amped, its highly unlikely that you will learn anything new. I save that for those very close to me. Which consist of really only a couple of people.

Who am I? Many ask. I am her. I am an individual that is complex yet simple, harsh yet loving, outspoken yet shy, emotional yet withdrawn, sarcastic yet deep. I am distanced from many yet close to a few. When I love, I love hard. However when I feel betrayed I turn numb. I have the ability to turn off just as fast as I turn on. Many say I have a sharp tongue. I say you probably deserved whatever choice words came out of my mouth.

I have well had.. well hmph, one sibling. A brother named Jason. He was my heart. He was my biggest fan and likewise. He supported me through the most trying times and I gave him motivation when he needed it. He was the one person I never had to worry about turning his back on me. The most amazing character I've ever been blessed enough to love, share a childhood with, and of course learn many life lessons with. He is probably the only man I will shed a tear over. The day I lost him, I lost a part of me. I'm just now learning ( a few years later) thats its okay to cry. Its okay to be weak and show emotion. Its okay to mourn.


All my life I've had to be strong for my mother. I hate her for that.
I hate her for taking my sense to love away from me. I hate her for the lack of the support and the negativity. But I love her for giving me life. Which more or less negates everything else.

My father = my savior.
My children = the light at the end of the tunnel.
He = my refreshment, my equal, something to anticipate in the near future.


All this combined plays into me.

-- her

Visual Creations

So it all started when ,

Her: I was taking a shower
Her: I feel real good now.
Him: I want to smell you.
Him: Taste you ...
Her: I smell amazing.
Him: Bend you over and stick my tongue in your pussy.
Her: yeah that got me wet a little.
Him: Good.
Him: I want to slide my fingers inside you while suckin' on your clit.
Him: Pullin' them out & tastin' you.
Him: Spreadin' your legs apart, sinkin' my tongue deep in you, 'til your juices creep down my throat.
Him: Suck on your tits, while fingerin' you, preparin' to slide in.
Her: you paint a perfect picture.
Him: I want to make sure you're nice & wet before I enter.
Him: Makin' sure I slide in slowly, my girth stretchin' your walls.
Him: I'd pull out, watchin' your hole reclose, slappin' my dick on your clit, sendin' tingles through your body, I'd slowly slide back in, makin' you moan.
Him: Puttin' your legs on my shoulder, I'd spread your lips apart, gettin' deep inside you.
Him: Can you feel me?
Him: Leanin' over, you feel my warmth on your, my moans in your ear, turnin' your face to kiss me.
Him: I kiss you passionately, leavin' my pulsation inside you.
Him: What your hands wrapped around me, pulling me in deeper, I'd let our juices marry one another.
Him: I can feel your slow orgasm drip out and onto my balls, your tightened grip and heavier pants lets me know not to move.
Him: Feels good, doesn't it?
Him: Let me go back down and taste your cream ...
Him: Mmmm
Him: I like this ... a lot!
Him: Turn on your side, let me put one leg in between yours ...
Him: This position gives you the view to watch me as I stroke you.
Him: And hold on to me.
Him: Your pussy, red & swollen from the poundin', is ready for me to release myself in you.
Him: My pace speeds, then slows, then speeds again.
Him: I can feel my eruption getting closer ... and closer ...
Him: You feel so damn good.
Him: You whisper intently, cum in my fuckin' pussy ... I nod coherently.
Him: Almost there.
Him: You pull me in harder ... harder ...
Him: My pulsation releases my milk as I slow down, slower & slower, leaning over and kissing you, restin' inside you as you capture my jism.
Him: We look into each others eyes, whispering, I love you ... kissing the day away.



<3 The End.